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Saturday, July 15, 2006

My Girl

I miss my girl. She's been gone since the 29th of June and she isn't scheduled to return until Friday night. She's at a camp in Washington state near Seattle. It is her self-proclaimed favorite place in the world to be. For a teen to admit to loving something so much and to openly volunteer emotions other than apathy or displeasure definitely says something. I love that she loves camp and I'm grateful she gets to go every year and reconnect with her friends (and cousin) there.

In addition, it takes a little pressure off of me when she's gone. Whether I'm working or just hanging out with friends, I don't have to feel guilty or worry about what she's doing. (I don't worry much about her when she is at camp. I hope this feeling of comfort with the operation there is justified).

That said, I miss her. As I drove back from Fort Wayne this morning, some song lyrics reminded me of her and I became acutely aware that I miss being around her. Within the last year or so she and I have developed a love for my Paul Simon's Greatest Hits CD. A couple weeks ago I was singing along to Slip Sliding Away:

Me: (singing, or something like it) "She said a good day...ain't got no rain."

T: (looking at me) That wouldn't be a good day for me. I like rain.

Remembering this conversation makes me smile. T does not want to "turn into" her mother; she's said as much. And yet, she is undeniably like me in many ways. I was terrified of storms as a child, but now I love them and I love warm, rainy days. T loves rain, too. And despite a relatively traumatic experience with severe storms a year or two ago, she is coming around with regard to storms, as well.

I don't want to push my dreams and goals on her, and I try hard not to do that. I truly just want her to be "happy," whatever that means. It's fascinating to watch her evolve, her personality taking little twists and turns as she tries to figure out who she "is" and what she enjoys. I love her to pieces and while we don't always get along (ha!) I will be happy to have her back home with me.


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