Contemplation

I worked as a labor and delivery nurse for about three years before I began contemplating a career change, and it turned out to be a rather drastic change. As a law student, I used to joke that I hoped my new career would hold my interest for a little longer before I began looking for a new challenge or direction. Deep down I worried that some unseen internal mechanism would create the need for another change after a few years.

Entering my fourth year of practicing law, I can report that I am not currently looking to switch jobs, or careers - yet. But I'm a little restless. I'm fortunate that I can honestly say I like what I do (about 90% of it) and I like the people with whom I work (an even higher percentage). Despite this, I'm fighting the nagging feeling that something is missing. Because something is.

The biggest problem with this useless knowledge is that I don't know WHAT is missing.* If I knew what my "dream job" was, I could at least make a decision to take a leap or play it safe. But I don't. That's right, I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. If I figure it out, I'll be sure to let you know. Don't hold your breath.

*I'm not entirely clueless on this point, and I think a little "feeding my soul" would go a long way. I'm working on a couple of things on this front.